Yo-le wohooo!

I honestly think my one-seven-year-old days have been really though for a moment. Most of things now I've to prepare my by own. Making decision is the main problem. It sucks knowing that I'll be received "Up to you" replies whenever I cannot decide on something. Remember the days where I don't even have the chance to decide on something because parents ALREADY had done that for me, and now? All gone. I admit some of the things I still have to let my parents to deal with but ... like registrations, shoppings, fees, money, chances. All those responsibility now I have take care of. My parents started to say OK to most of the things. Not complaining but I'm just startled. So sudden. The days have passed by too fast until I didn't realized how hard the responsibilities I have to deal with in future. What if.. just what if.. I'm taking the wrong step?

By the way, I'm done with my test and one week break here I am! I don't know how does that really mean to you but obviously my days are already occupied with driving classes, tuitions and so on. It is funny how I used to love being relaxing but now is different. I love to make myself busy and to be worried of something about! I like to be busy of doing something. (But total freak out when I'm too busy back then).

See. Things have changed. I now appreciated things more than ever. Like school days. I tried so hard not to be absent because I know someday I'm gonna miss it. I don't want to miss all those classmates laughters, the annoying faces, teachers who were giving wake up calls nonstop, teachers being mad at us, the class, the laboratory, the field, sports day, co-curriculum. Oh God telling this is just making me miss them already! Life is so precious until I feel regret why I wasted it for something else before. I'm learning life now. Alhamdulillah.

What you've been Missed

*wipe tears* There's nothing much left to say than a million thank you.

Amazing days, indeed. I bet most of you know my birthday fall on 14th Feb (cut the part where I have to skipped from writing due preparation for March test). What else can I ask for? The bestfriend stopped by at my house 11.30pm the night before, surprise me with the presents. Call and long texts from lovely Hazeeq at sharp 12am. Boxes of chocolates I received on the day. Then knowing that I've been categorized as one of best students on 2011 was the best news ever. Received certificates on the following Saturday. Been "kidnapped" to KL by Along and Hafsham after that. Reached home and friends were waiting for me to surprise. Eventhough the surprise actually a MAJOR FAILED because I literally found out since everyone was acting so weird throughout all the week. Steak for dinner with family. Presents from friends.

They are worth for living. I just can't stop thank each of them and to those who are willing to drop by to wish me. Thank you so much. I am 17 now. I've grown up. I am a big girl. Alhamdullilah. :-)

Yet another Year

If last two years, I went to Genting Highlands & on the following year I went to Penang but this time.. *drum rolls* Singapore! I think it has been a tradition that my family and I will be going somewhere during CNY break. It;s like the only holiday that could bring all of us together. Just another 3 days 2 nights short trip but honestly, I had fun. The only difference was this time, Abah couldn't tagged along because he had to go to Sri Lanka but one of my relative from mum's side decided to tag together. Nothing much issues anyway, I still had a very good time ;-)

Did all the normal things on the first day, check-in, took MRT and walked to the Singapore city. Enjoyed ourselves by looking at another sweet creature of Allah SWT. I've been to Singapore before but that was like 8 or 9 years ago and obviously I couldn't even remember a thing! So its time for me to recall all the things that I've been forgotten. 

THE ICE CREAM STORE! URGHH. Ok nak emo sebab melepas this great opportunity! Along told me the ice cream tasted so gooooood but unfortunately Mak won't let me to stop & buy (not even one, cis!) because the line was tooooooo long. Hm k. Takpa. Sedih.

Shopped some souvenir for my friends, had a good walk around the city and indulged ourselves w Chicken Rice Shop as dinner. Oh my, you don't know how HARD it was to find halal food. Especially during CNY's eve. The shop mostly closed by 5pm because they had to go for their makan besar. We literally had to buy our dinner around 6pm at Chicken Rice Shop and I think that was the ONLY shop opened. But I know  there were other part of Singapore were all Malays will go but we... were... tired... of... walking... sigh... Took our MRT again and walked again and walked again, and walked again back to Sentosa island. I even slept at 9pm on that night because we were too tired of walking! That was actually too early for me. Heh.

So here comes the fun part! Universal Studio on the next day! Wee! 

Madagascar's family ride. Did you see the sign that stated "Present by Maybank"? Mak was quite excited to ride that thing hahaha. The ride was fun! Same goes to Shrek 4D where all the torture begins. Oh and the Underwater show where all of us wet at the end of the show. Padan muka. Kena simbah air. Uhh sadly camera's not allowed during the show. Nahhh. The Donkey Live that I thought gonna suck the whole entire day was actually turned out to be really cute! I can't get over it actually! Hahaha.

Jurassic Park & Transformers' rides were my favourite! Very recommended! The ride was incredibly awesome, I just can't deny that. Eventhough we had to line for almost 1 hour (memang rasa nak give up dah sebenarnya) but all the wait are totally worth it. No camera's allowed when we were in the rides. My advice: GO UNIVERSAL STUDIO AND EXPERIENCE IT. It's pretty hard to explain how great it was just in sentence, somehow you need to experience it by yourself. 

Shopped again at Universal Studios shop where all of us were getting nuts! I feel like buying almost everything. I just hate it from seeing all the cute things in front of my eyes, I just can't help it! Anyway, it was worth it. Enough said. I can't find another word than "fun". Twas truly made my day. Of course if I had given the chance I'd go back and took the rides all over again. Who doesn't? :-) 

Alhamdullilah. A perfect break from the hectic life.

Whys Whats Hows

5 Omega's assistant monitor, AJK of Tanaman & Sayuran in KPA, member of Bowling Club & member of KRS. The first two weeks have been really hectic. Being a senior is not something that I asked for but Alhamdullilah, school's treating me nice so far. The first thoughts were horrible anyway, it was weird and uncomfortable and urgh, I don't know! Sometimes whenever I'm at school I wish I could turn those 4 years back where all the seniors were there. To be exact, knowing there's one to refer to, is sucks. 

It's not that I have issues with the juniors but honestly, I get along better with seniors to be compared to the junior. It's like I have the chemistry between them. But time heals, I'm starting to like Form 5 now. Teachers started to put the trust on us. I just need to try. Its time for me to get along and know all my juniors too. Uh at least I don't wanna leave the school by titled as an arrogant senior. I'd like to be the senior that could be remembered for every human beings in school! I wanna be nice to everybody!

Part of it, school teachers and tuition tutors started to push on my studies. It freaked me out a lil bit that I don't have much time left. Can't stop stressing about it since everyone wants the best *sigh heavily* I try. I always pray to Allah SWT to get everything be easy, insyaAllah. :)

Inspired, it Heals

Something random about me that you should know: I'd like to spent hours or whole day in a bookstore. Not really the bookworm type but I looooooove reading as much as I love food. It's like laying on the big and peaceful field, with those birds twitting, staring at blue sky, the other side where rainbows started to show up, closing both eyes and feel the peacefulness. God, reading is just something like you're inside of it. You read it and you feel it. Every words means everything. I used to consider myself being a writer someday but I know if I do I probably be the sucks one. I'm not good enough at translating the feelings even in one word.

By the way, I had a sister-and-sister date with my oldest sister last Sunday. It's been awhile! We used to hangout (most of the time with all my siblings) but things are getting different over here. All my siblings already started with their job, I'm the only one left in high school and you got what I mean, from "always" to "seldom". I'll be the biggest liar ever if I say I didn't miss all that. So everytime I got the opportunity to go out with one of them, I'll appreciate every minute of it.

So Along brought me to Publika. I've been there couple of times before, there were just hundreds of office buildings and renovation here and there. But this time, everything went different! They are quite a lot of shops are finally opened to be compared to before, it feels like so Bangsar-ish. It was obviously nice! We wanted to try the home-made ice cream at B.I.G Ben's Independent Grocer but unfortunately it was closed by the time we finished our dinner *crying* I swear the ice cream looks so inviting! 

Went for a walk around there. I don't know what elements that the buildings had thrown but I'm just sooo in love with it. It's like love at the first sight. There were like Arts everywhere (and you don't know how much I love arts). The waiting chairs, the shops and the walls too! They were drawings on the wall where you can literally bring your crayons/sharpie and freaking DRAW OR WRITE ANYTHING ON IT. Nope I'm not kidding! It's like everyone's Arts after all. I looove it!

I'm so upset I didn't brought my camera together but still thankful Blackberry's battery is being nice that night. Here's something amazing that I'd like to share:

Ignore the qualities please. Up there you see are actually the FLOOR TILES. There were like hundreds of quotes floor tiles. Jalan-jalan mesti jumpa! Ya Allah I just don't know how to say this but this is absolute brilliant idea I could never think of. Its like whenever you feel tired from work or depressed, or even wehn you're broken-hearted, you walk there, look down and you feel inspired. You feel like nothing or no one could feel the same as much as the words do. 

It's a place that everyone must to go. I'd like to bring Hazeeq or my bestfriend there once they're fully open but I'm afraid by the time its open the place would get really crowded. Well, its like that I didn't get used to it? I just need to go there again someday, totally a night made. I thank Allah and my sister (of course) for bringing me there. Now I know where to find my own serenity :)

Another new Begin

I can't tell you how many times (or years) I've been wondering, waiting & imagining myself being a senior in future. Now, the time has arrive. Less than 12 hours I'm going to enter the school area and being called as a senior. Senior year = last year = graduation = SPM. Yucks! Part of me I just feel old and not so ready for this but another half, very looking for it. It's going to be my last year in high school, I've been putting in my mind that I'm going to make it the best of the years. InsyaAllah. I believe things like this always come one in a million times! Welcome back to school to those who are still schooling! Let's enjoy our new begin tomorrow. Bismillah..

New begin

3:04am. Time like this, I wish you were there giving me the usual virtual hugs messages and telling me everything was alright. Advising me to be more open minded, telling me all those people were just jealous and calming me by who I wanna be: a stonger woman in future. Part of it, eventhough with that little lies you did tricken me by words, it actually made myself more lighten. I’m still glad things came back as how I knew it will happened someday.

Anyway, here’s the moment of the truth, my New Year Eve went bad, as in, really bad. By you mean having BBQ with friends, staring at the skies,  for the clock to turn to 12 midnight and fireworks to show up? Well, that was so last year. I’m not into that mood pun, not even close. Yes I had another BBQ too this year but it was far from what I ever imagined. It was just an okay. Other than that, I’ve been busy recovering myself from those sadness.

So 2012 it is. I’ve been planning to do some 2011 recaps but something clicked me that no one will bother if that’s what I’m planning to. There are only two words that suitable to be define how 2011 treated me, they are unforgettable & indescribable.

Meeting new cool friends, had (and still having) a wonderful classmates, short trip to Penang with family, those first-time activities: kena gigit pacat, jungle trekking, walking through 5km jabatan gantung, riding boat, camping, feeding elephants, oh those memorable outing with friends, birthday surprises, won for the 3rd place in drama competition, engineering drawing tuitions (god. the best tuition buddies ever), open houses and ... uhhh no body even cares, it was everything ♥ ♥

I think most of importantly, those people who willingly (and I thank Allah for this) to come my life & make it a lot brighter than ever. You know who you are, I really appreciated every single of you. Especially to the damn haters who made my life even stronger than ever and the other part of it, those who cares to listen all my silly craps :”) There are jail doors in my heart putting guys in there.

Last year, I always hold on the phrase “Mind over matter”. If you want it to be wonderful year, you just have to believe it IS and make it how you want it to be. Take all the bloody opportunity, skipped the regrets and move on. Don’t ever live in past. I really made it so insyaallah I'm gonna hold on with this phrase forever. Alhamdullilah.